Heart and Mind Connection

When your mind understands the idea of what you should do, but your heart refuses to let the logic penetrate the walls of your personal safe space to force yourself to create change. Sometimes it's the opposite in your heart you know its the right thing to change and move on from yet your mind creates all these logical reasons to why not give up on burnt out matches although they have no life of their own left. It's a constant dilemma from different aspects, that are played out on a daily occurrence. Sometimes it's the feeling of my body that doesn't seem to contact other parts of the body, sometimes my central nervous system goes on strike, it's hard to not hate your body at that time.
There is also the constant back and forth over which connection do you rely on and when. I have found my heart usually has the deep gut feeling that overtakes logic at some points yet they are usually crucial and worth acting on. It doesn't make acting on them easy yet, in the long run, the more I muffle the voices between my heart and my mind the harder it is to make an impact in the world.

Mystery Murderers

They claim to be doctors. They claim to study enough to help you with your aches pains and mysterious problems. That's what doctors go to school for over 8 years. Yet all I've found is as soon as the symptoms don't add up to a simple equation and there are too many variables, then they just check out tell you to come back in 6 months and one test that they don't have to administer will be the key to unlock pandora's box. Belief is what they try to instill in you while telling you the same filler every doctor has told you for the past 9 months. You want to hope before the appointment that the doctor will have some kind of new idea, and give you a reason to believe they have the tools to help you but it's all just a waste of energy as they are as helpful as their predecessors. Doesn't matter the school they went to or where they placed on the exit exam they are the same guys with the same half-empty tool boxes. Murderers who claim they have the tools to life while killing you with time.